Blank Mind

There are moments

When we went blank

And shutting down.

We take time, to process

And to make sense.

Your mind 

would try to deny

Your mind

Would try to justify

You mind

Would try to make you believe

This is not happening

You're dreaming.

Then you start to sweat

Profusely

Then you start to think

To fight or to flight

At this very moment

You need an anchor

To remind you

Of the ground

And to make you think 

And act rationally.

And at this very moment

When you not waking up

You know that this is real.

It only takes thousandth of seconds

But felt like minutes

To process

What feeling should you feel right now

You cried then

Thinking that it shouldn't be happening

Hoping that this should be avoided

Regreting that you can do nothing about it.

Thankful that you have someones there, 

waiting for you.

To go thru all the mishap

Even for a brief moment.

You then follow thru

All the procedures

Neglecting your own guts and feeling

To which action you should had been taken.

Then you regret

Above all the mishap

And all the misunderstanding

You just can't turn it over

To its place.

You can't never get the chance

To redeem yourself

To speak off your side.

You then just sit still.

Hoping that moment would be forgotten.

Hoping that you were not there

At the beginning of the story.

To you,

I am trully sorry.

I can't be any sorrier.

But I also need to be sorry for myself.

Forgive myself,

To move on with my life.

That's it.

Should we ever cross path in the future

I am ok. 

Hoping you too.