Sunday, July 23, 2017

Nearing 30's

Nearing 30's.
I concluded that I have no luck when it comes to a love life.

I'm not being choosy.. yet not too lenient in finding a man. It is the eyes that observe and the heart that decides how attractive a man could be.
"Cinta...tak dapat diduga, cinta... hanya dapat dirasa, senada dalam cinta"

I may find a man attractive by the way he carries himself, the smile or the scent.

Each person gives different impact on the soul. Yet, i could not find the one that resonate with the heart that vibrates.

He might not be exist or may be he does not resonate at the same magnitude as my heart beats. Or may be, our path is not yet crossing.

It is quite frustrating, to open your heart and bare your feeling to someone new and strange in your life just to find out that he is not ready to dance. How venurable we could be, by exposing our sacred feeling to the one that feels he had abundance choices lay upon his eyes and feels no guilt to play with your emotion.

I've open my heart once.. as wide as it could be, just to find out that he got his girl already.
I've open my opportunity and possibility to find a guy in an online dating apps, just to find out that most of them are playful, lustful and had not guilty to text inappropriately.
I've once again try to open my heart and see what would happen if I try a little harder? Hmmm, I feel the spark but it could not be burnt fiery. It takes two to tango, man. I did find you attractive when you were talking enthusiastically about your work. Then, when you singing and humming while scrolling down your phone, and when you share your choices of song. I bet you're not bad at all. I did not judge how boroi you're as I myself had no flat abs.haha. I did find you as a handsome and a neat guy even when you did talk while your mouth is full.hihi.
I just wish you try a little harder when interacting to someone else later on. That's the major turning down. Or else, i just had to conclude that your heart does not resonate with mine. Or, it is me that falls too easily.How rugi...

Now, my heart is not ready. And I did not know when it will be ready.
Enough for the year of 2017.
Try my luck next year. Okbai!

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